SPRING BREAK TIME YAY! I'm not really going anywhere but what a relief to have two weeks off from school! School is literally killing me and I'm done thinking about it for a while.

I am so happy with the way things in my life are going. I am so thankful and God is the one who supplies me with all these blessings. I only wish I didn't change through friends so fast :( I always have different friends all the time. Part of that is from being single because as soon as any of your friends are in relationships, they start to stray away because they become engulfed in the relationship. Another reason is because there is a difference between friends and true friends. It's so hard to come by true friends and having enough time to build a relationship like that with them takes time.

I don't really have a lot of friends nor do I care lol. I think I am a cool person and if no one else sees that, well then screw 'em ;) People come and go and thats just life. Welp, time to start my spring break off with a movie. I love movies. Have a great day cuz I know I will :)

Hello. I had a pretty fun weekend but now its back to work. This week I only have class Monday through Wednesday but I'm totally not looking forward to it. I have an Organic Chemistry exam Wednesday just before my sweet two week spring break starts. I also have tons of homework. I don't think people that don't go to college fully understand the miserable amount of work we have to do for it. This is my hardest semester so that doesn't help too much either. My other classes are Physics, Environmental Microbiology and Immunology. It's intense and I definitly haven't been putting the amount of effort into as I would like.

Sadly enough, I'm not going anywhere for spring break:( But it's cool because I will pick up extra hours at my job at the university and just have time to relax and read and just clear my mind from school so I'm looking forward to it. Well time for Bed wish me luck for the next few days.

I have to just break down and say that I'm so sick of the guy situation. I have a perfect quote to sum it all up and that's:
I'm sick of:
the hook ups
the set ups
the fuck ups
the guy who only wants one thing
the guy who doesn't know what he wants
and the guy who does, but won't admit it
...I just want the real thing
I think that quote fits me right now. I do want the real thing but the problem is I am leaving in a couple months for Baltimore and its hard to keep a relationship when one person moves away.
My second problem is that there are guys but I never give them a chance. The only guy that I really like is the one I can't have and I should have gotten over him a long time ago but I still put up with all of the bullshit. I can't wait until the day I find someone who loves me and wants to be in my presence just because I make him feel a certain way. I mean, who doesn't want that? I've been single for a while and the single life does have its pros. For example, I never have to deal with anyone, I can do what I want. That's always a great thing to possess especially at this age. I am getting ready to start my career and get myself settled somewhere then I'll have more time for guys.

That's what I keep telling myself until that right guy comes along and hopefully its not too far away. I have a bad habit of going after guys who don't necessarily treat me right and yeah that's my own fault. Of course I have thought about why and we all make bad choices. I want someone new, mature and smart that meshes with my personality. Oh well someday I'll have that and for now I will just go to bed and dream ;)